31st October 2009
Posted by
BenNike
Rest in Peace, Herbie.
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Friday, October 30, 2009
The Beginning of the End
Posted by
BenNike
25th October 2009..
A belief that I have long cultivated in me, such a dogma will I not be easily influenced by any intrinsic or extrinsic factors. The Beginning of the End, where times flies.
........
As we progress through many phases, there are various-different environments and atmospheres, we are exposed to. Nuff said.
Being that, the coming to the end of 2nd semester is days away. Finishing Trials, and soon, Finals. Tomorrow, which is next week, would be considered as the final week for our time together. The good moments we had, the joy and fun experiences we shared together, the sorrow moments of burden we took together, and the new understanding of given knowledge basing on our actions learnt simultaneously.
The duration of 1 year simply flew by, too fast for me, or anyone to grasp the real meaning of time. Coming from that, I just want to say, I have learnt a lot. The things and steps I have to do, to avoid conflicts, the words I have to watched out for, to avoid prejudices, the image that I portrayed, to avoid misunderstanding, and lastly, the actions I have to execute, to sort out intricate problems. The year 2009, which I shall consider, to be one of the years where various things happened to me, and have really shed light on real meaning of life.
Ignorance and denial is a bliss but reality can be painful as well. As I dwell deeper in this statement, I begun to understand more and more of it. Being a bona fide realist, like myself, has enabled me to bring myself to the society properly and move on. Life can be sucky at times, but life wouldn't be interesting isn't it ? - if there isn't any obstacle hindering us from progressing. Sometimes, words would bring no meaning, if the existence of antonyms and opposites are absent from the very nature of the definition. Word would be nothing but a word, if the contradicting word doesn't appear basing on the word itself. Confusing ? Let's hope not.
In simpler terms, it means that, we wouldn't understand the meaning of full and satisfied, if we hadn't feel hungry. We wouldn't understand the meaning of happy if we weren't sad. We wouldn't understand the importance of companions and friendships, without once feeling lonely and forlorn. Likewise, we wouldn't understand the real hardship of life, if we only live our life avoiding knotty and convoluted problems and at the same time, pouring in little efforts in accomplishing what we aimed for.
So there you have it. To sum it all, I am thankful and glad for the things that happened to me. The failures and successes I obtained, the new experiences I gained, the new friends I have made, and lastly, the real understanding of life itself. Our future isn't something that we just risk it on the line by hoping for good luck to achieve success.
By hoping and by wishing for good opportunities coming to our way is just plainly too idealistic. Success lies in our hand, and definitely basing on our genuine efforts. The endeavours we're going to do in the future, is what defines us, and is the very manifestation and reflection of an individual. So to say, let's work hard and enjoy life. Getting depressed nor getting emotional on little things is the last thing we should actually consider.
Thank you.
"Ignorance and denial is a bliss but reality can be painful as well" - (BenLim, 2009).
"Word would be nothing but a word, if the contradicting word doesn't appear basing on the word itself" - (BenLim, 2009).
- BenL ^^
A belief that I have long cultivated in me, such a dogma will I not be easily influenced by any intrinsic or extrinsic factors. The Beginning of the End, where times flies.
........
As we progress through many phases, there are various-different environments and atmospheres, we are exposed to. Nuff said.
Being that, the coming to the end of 2nd semester is days away. Finishing Trials, and soon, Finals. Tomorrow, which is next week, would be considered as the final week for our time together. The good moments we had, the joy and fun experiences we shared together, the sorrow moments of burden we took together, and the new understanding of given knowledge basing on our actions learnt simultaneously.
The duration of 1 year simply flew by, too fast for me, or anyone to grasp the real meaning of time. Coming from that, I just want to say, I have learnt a lot. The things and steps I have to do, to avoid conflicts, the words I have to watched out for, to avoid prejudices, the image that I portrayed, to avoid misunderstanding, and lastly, the actions I have to execute, to sort out intricate problems. The year 2009, which I shall consider, to be one of the years where various things happened to me, and have really shed light on real meaning of life.
Ignorance and denial is a bliss but reality can be painful as well. As I dwell deeper in this statement, I begun to understand more and more of it. Being a bona fide realist, like myself, has enabled me to bring myself to the society properly and move on. Life can be sucky at times, but life wouldn't be interesting isn't it ? - if there isn't any obstacle hindering us from progressing. Sometimes, words would bring no meaning, if the existence of antonyms and opposites are absent from the very nature of the definition. Word would be nothing but a word, if the contradicting word doesn't appear basing on the word itself. Confusing ? Let's hope not.
In simpler terms, it means that, we wouldn't understand the meaning of full and satisfied, if we hadn't feel hungry. We wouldn't understand the meaning of happy if we weren't sad. We wouldn't understand the importance of companions and friendships, without once feeling lonely and forlorn. Likewise, we wouldn't understand the real hardship of life, if we only live our life avoiding knotty and convoluted problems and at the same time, pouring in little efforts in accomplishing what we aimed for.
So there you have it. To sum it all, I am thankful and glad for the things that happened to me. The failures and successes I obtained, the new experiences I gained, the new friends I have made, and lastly, the real understanding of life itself. Our future isn't something that we just risk it on the line by hoping for good luck to achieve success.
By hoping and by wishing for good opportunities coming to our way is just plainly too idealistic. Success lies in our hand, and definitely basing on our genuine efforts. The endeavours we're going to do in the future, is what defines us, and is the very manifestation and reflection of an individual. So to say, let's work hard and enjoy life. Getting depressed nor getting emotional on little things is the last thing we should actually consider.
Thank you.
"Ignorance and denial is a bliss but reality can be painful as well" - (BenLim, 2009).
"Word would be nothing but a word, if the contradicting word doesn't appear basing on the word itself" - (BenLim, 2009).
- BenL ^^
Sunday, October 25, 2009
13th Oct 2009
Posted by
BenNike
1. There are just too many things in my head now - Staring bluntly into the empty air space do sometimes provide me some benefit of doubts.
2. Hectic week - many exams - yet stress level ? Minimal for now. Studying in college helps me to get my mind off the reality.
3. Hoping for schoolmates to make Langkawi trip a successful one.
4. Still deciding whether to enter NS.
5. Still deciding what to do during the holidays. I want to do something productive. hmm
- BeN
2. Hectic week - many exams - yet stress level ? Minimal for now. Studying in college helps me to get my mind off the reality.
3. Hoping for schoolmates to make Langkawi trip a successful one.
4. Still deciding whether to enter NS.
5. Still deciding what to do during the holidays. I want to do something productive. hmm
- BeN
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
1st October 2009
Posted by
BenNike
Reached home at 6.30p.m after a long dreadful - mundane, dull, and boring Moral Studies.
Ate my dinner and immediately dozed off till now. Woke up at 11 p.m + with a real effing headache. Gahh ~! , it's subsiding but still haven't go away T_T
Stupid nightmare.. I don't even know why must I be involved in that dream. ish. =.=
Sien la. Anyway, looking forward for Shi Man's MoonCake Celebration on Sat. ^^
-BeN
Thursday, October 1, 2009
27th September 2009
Posted by
BenNike
To start anew for tomorrow, I shall. A week of holiday has ended and nothing productive gained throughout the entire semester break.
1. It seems to me I've been thinking a lot lately. Carefully thinking of the consequences, the result, and the future outcome.
2. I'm really worried and lost.
3. I'm doing my presentation slide now, after days of procrastination. I'm doing it now for the sake of necessity rather than a luxury. At least I tried.
4. Tomorrow is badminton and I don't feel like going.
5. College classes commence starting tomorrow and I feel no slight notion of enthusiasticm in me despite the need for me to communicate with my friends after a long week of dreadful holiday.
6. I love college, yet I hate it at times. It comes and go. I don't know why.
7. I want to get over with the Moral Studies Project and my Maths topic test.
8. It is time, to search for other alternative. Rest assured I will not be disillusioned by the abundant peer pressure lingering around me.
Bye.
- Benjamin
1. It seems to me I've been thinking a lot lately. Carefully thinking of the consequences, the result, and the future outcome.
2. I'm really worried and lost.
3. I'm doing my presentation slide now, after days of procrastination. I'm doing it now for the sake of necessity rather than a luxury. At least I tried.
4. Tomorrow is badminton and I don't feel like going.
5. College classes commence starting tomorrow and I feel no slight notion of enthusiasticm in me despite the need for me to communicate with my friends after a long week of dreadful holiday.
6. I love college, yet I hate it at times. It comes and go. I don't know why.
7. I want to get over with the Moral Studies Project and my Maths topic test.
8. It is time, to search for other alternative. Rest assured I will not be disillusioned by the abundant peer pressure lingering around me.
Bye.
- Benjamin
Sunday, September 27, 2009
A Jog In Seri Kembangan
Posted by
BenNike
The setting sun paints in the skies in hues of orange and yellow, basking the vast green landscapes that stretch for miles in its beauty. With the skies buoyant around the corners of the shiny rays of sunlight, clouds looking as fluffy as always and blue in its nature, blending in, to merge such a tranquil and picturesque atmosphere in that moment of time.
Bringing further to the ground, fresh and identical pine trees lingered straight in the pathway, giving a seemingly impression of a parallel world of mirrors as I jog passed it. A downpour, earlier in the morning, leaving every leaves a vivid details of lush-greenish and countrified leaves, with water particles gracefully streaming down the minuscule yet distinct veins of every leaves.
Weather wise, it's cold and chilly. With every few steps jogged, the blustery wind brushes through my face, caressing it and provide such a temptation to continue further on to enjoy the luxury of this feeling.
I stared straight, looking deep into the never-ending damp trail, never knowing that comes ahead. With no hesitation, I moved forward and further deep through the vast empty path, where there is no living souls around but me and my beloved I-Pod.
Myriads of brilliant sun-rays shone the pathways, such glittery glows I had never seem to notice the entire time, not forgetting the radiant luminosity it emanated. I squinted my eyes and swiveled my head looking back at the steps I've taken.
"These are my choices, and here I am".
Each second passed, and every distance I covered, troubled thoughts continued to swirl and spiral around my palpable consciousness, with no uncertainty to remain its very nature. It skyrocketed and ricocheted with such intense reverberation and only leaving me with a seemingly petite and trivial gap to breath out and clear my attention.
I reflected upon myself, and thought.. "Maybe This is My Destiny".
to be continued..
- Benjamin
Bringing further to the ground, fresh and identical pine trees lingered straight in the pathway, giving a seemingly impression of a parallel world of mirrors as I jog passed it. A downpour, earlier in the morning, leaving every leaves a vivid details of lush-greenish and countrified leaves, with water particles gracefully streaming down the minuscule yet distinct veins of every leaves.
Weather wise, it's cold and chilly. With every few steps jogged, the blustery wind brushes through my face, caressing it and provide such a temptation to continue further on to enjoy the luxury of this feeling.
I stared straight, looking deep into the never-ending damp trail, never knowing that comes ahead. With no hesitation, I moved forward and further deep through the vast empty path, where there is no living souls around but me and my beloved I-Pod.
Myriads of brilliant sun-rays shone the pathways, such glittery glows I had never seem to notice the entire time, not forgetting the radiant luminosity it emanated. I squinted my eyes and swiveled my head looking back at the steps I've taken.
"These are my choices, and here I am".
Each second passed, and every distance I covered, troubled thoughts continued to swirl and spiral around my palpable consciousness, with no uncertainty to remain its very nature. It skyrocketed and ricocheted with such intense reverberation and only leaving me with a seemingly petite and trivial gap to breath out and clear my attention.
I reflected upon myself, and thought.. "Maybe This is My Destiny".
to be continued..
- Benjamin
Monday, September 21, 2009
A Love To Be Remembered
Posted by
BenNike
Sometimes I wonder if you know,
Exactly how I feel,
Our love is not romantic,
But still is very real.
You come to me when you feel bad,
And everything goes wrong,
Always expecting happiness,
And to hear a cheery song.
I’ll always be here when you're hurt,
I know you know I’ll stay,
But I’m not sure you’d miss me,
If I ever went away.
Friends in deed are a very rare find,
Not too many stick it out,
Through the good times and bad,
Giving no cause to doubt.
I hang on your every word.
Your simple presence in a room,
gives my life a purpose.
Add your voice and a smile,
and I melt away.
Friends is all we'll ever be,
but Why I do feel it's more ?
I wish I could tell you how I really feel inside.
That I'd be willing to take that chance,
To be more than just your friend.
I know you sense this, as I do,
but it's easier to pretend.
Saying it would make it real,
and you'd run away and hide from me.
So I'll try and keep the flood gates closed,
and be content that you let me be,
Just your friend.
Should I smile,
because we're friends,
or should I cry,
because that's all we'll ever be.
- Benjamin Lim Beng Han
- 3th September 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
